Hey guys, I haven't posted in basically forever. I just kind of needed somewhere to vent.

I've had an undiagnosed illness for the last 9 months, I'm in constant pain ranging from 4/10 - 7/10 throughout the day. I've seen about a dozen specialists and had countless diagnostic tests, every doctor I've seen so far just straight up tells me they don't know what's wrong with me and all they can do is rule out what isn't wrong with me.

I've always sort of been an emotionally awkward person most of my life at the best of times but I'm finding myself breaking out in tears at the sheer depths of absolute despair that I feel on a daily basis; I keep feeling like I should be able to wake myself up from this nightmare somehow.

Earlier today I talked with a representative from the Mayo Clinic – one of the best facilities in the US for diagnosing rare diseases. They want five grand for the initial consultation and that doesn't even cover the costs for any labs or imaging they might want to do. It's absolutely criminal to charge that kind of money to people in need. They also can't see me until mid-December if they decide to take my case.

Thanks for listening.