Last night I didn't sleep well at all, and in spite of (or perhaps because of) this, I had the first very clear and memorable dream I've had in probably over a year. I dreamed that it was the night before I left on some sort of trip with a couple of family members, involving getting on an airplane. Somehow, I knew that the plane would be hijacked while we were onboard, and we wouldn't survive. I don't know if the others on the trip knew, but they seemed oddly cheerful. Somehow I got the impression that they knew, but somehow didn't care, or perhaps just wanted to ignore it, and it was disconcerting. So I said goodbye to the rest of my family - those not going - and I knew I would never see them again. And then I hugged one of them, and I didn't let go for a long time, and it started to worry them. They didn't know. So I finally let go, and then I left the house and was about to get in the car. I didn't tell anyone what I knew, for some reason; I wanted to so terribly. I only wanted to stay behind, but somehow I couldn't say anything.

That was when I woke up. I felt relieved, but at the same time very disturbed. In the dream, it had been the first time I had really faced up to the idea of death, and never seeing and I wasn't ready for it. No matter what or how strong your beliefs, I don't understand how anyone could feel ready to die.

Despite how it might sound, I'm actually not depressed right now. More disturbed than anything. I had two finals this morning that both went fine, and I missed my 1337 hit.

Also, I discovered a great freeware (non-GM, though) game yesterday called Within a Deep Forest. It's got a ton of originality, beautiful graphics, great physics, and absolutely fantastic music. It reminds me of Seiklus in some ways, which makes sense because the author cites it as inspiration. In any case, I highly recommend it.

http://withinadeepforest.ni2.se/index.php?stuff=thegame