i want dramamine

i want nyquil

i wanna do it all

i wanna be a whore to drugs and medicine

slam me, fuck me against the wall

all just for a little thrill

a little bit of vice and sin

topped with a bit of sugar and love

who knows just what could come?

it's just a little bit above

the expected normal, it's fun!

it's all fine and nice to do

laying in piles of discarded skin

i can't feel my body anymore

but to my intents i stay true

tearing through with sin

i just want to be a little whore

i wanna be so ill, so blown

i wanna be caught up in my mind

away from all you people here

away from myself, from all the fear

from life, from all of time,

just to feel a bit closer to the heart

i'd swallow that bottle of pills

and convulse in my own disgust

at my foolish games of pain and thrills

i'm gonna swallow that bottle of tylenol

and overdose and end this bust

gonna just break free into the night

with a little bit of xanax for might

i wanna soil my skin red

cough syrup draining into my pores

feeling the amphetamines course

all throughout my veins

leaving me mentally dead

but physically without disdain

it's not like i have anything

in this world that i might lose

just another one night fling

of pills, hate, and booze

clawing at my throat for air

with no breath to be found

seeing the world in shades of pink and green

and seeing the sound

as i down a bit more vicodin

my hand full of acceptance

drugs that won't judge me

that will make my mind dance

and let me be free

i wanna claw at reality

and tear myself loose from this constraint

open up my eyes, to a sight of nothing

the darkness encroaching the sanity

lying in a pool of my own waste

i can no longer see

the xanax as ran out, the bottles pill-free

the heroin lying next to my hands

and a little needle just for me

the tylenol finding itself in a dance

with the psilocybin, and the meth

clawing it's way through my skin

the amphetamines coursing me to death

and a smile on my face, accepting this

wishing only to do it again

to just put myself in this drug-induced heaven