i have a lot to look foward to. i'm in a new city, i have a new perspective on my career, i'm making way more money than i used to, i live in a house now, and.. i won't jynx the last one.

but this is one time, in years, that I can finally say im happy. even with shit happening to people around me, i feel like i found my inner peace. i'm not pissed at much, and i'm not argumentative against everyone like i was, but at the same time i also don't just kick back and pretend everything's okay. i'm still outspoken, i'm just not as wreckless as before if the moment doesn't call for it.

i wish i had time. i want more time to work on my video game, to learn songs on guitar, to go to the gym, to fix my car, computer, house… but i work a lot now. not to mention im always hanging out with my friends or girlfriend, so it doesn't leave me with much time for anything else. i feel lazy.

but it's a good feeling. most of what i said was going to be my golden year of my life, me being 23 years old, has been achieved. i went on study groups at school and got a good set of grades my final semester. i applied for my new school in my new city successfully. i went to the gym, hard, the past 6 months, and i've been working as much as i can on reading and playing guitar. my golden year wasn't full of successes that are visible right away, it was representative of a year that i realized my mortality. im going to die one day, i do not, in fact, have forever to pospone the things i want to do in life.

i'm 24 now. my b-day was a couple of weeks ago, and i'm not sad that im no longer the same age as my favorite number… because what i did this year isn't something i plan on stopping. i just came back from the gym and making myself a nice healthy breakfast and lunch. i didn't spend it on kicking back watching netflix… and for that i'm happy for.

This piece of writing is a mixture of the holidays. my birthday, thanksgiving, christmas, and new years, I'm thankful, I'm aware I'm getting older, I'm giving to my buddies, and I'm prepping for next year.

After writing this, I can definitely say, I feel ｗï½?ｋｅ ï½?ｆ

If i don't log in again, which I probably will, have a good set of holidays guys.