Welcome to 2018

Posted by Nighthawk on July 22, 2018, 11:55 a.m.

Hey everybody, what's good? It's been a while. I occasionally peek in and see what's changed here for nostalgic reasons. Found the discord server, joined that, said hi, figured I'd make a post here though for good measure. 

Life's pretty different these days. I moved out of my parents' place almost two years ago, I've had three developer jobs now and I'm hoping this new one sticks for a while. It's not my dream job but the pay is good, the work is manageable and the people are chill. (Albeit significantly older than me.) I'm still hoping that next game I finish is going to help propel me into a career as an indie game developer, we'll see if I actually finish one of them though first haha. Latest foray is like an online co-op slay the spire with a 2D final fantasy aesthetic. (I'll share more details another day if I feel like it.)

Also, I'm a girl now, welcome to 2018! I've been transitioning for about a year, on hormone replacement for about nine months, and I'm out basically everywhere but work at this point. (It'll be a bit of an HR thing when I do come out there and I'd rather wait until my "new hire probation" finishes up first.) I didn't make many people's most-likely-to-come-out-as-queer lists, partially due to my being pretty openly religious, but that's also part of the reason it took me so long to finally get it out there. Either way I feel a huge sense of relief in being able to speak openly about it these days and it feels so much more honest. That, and watching my appearance change over time, wearing whatever the heck I like, and finally being addressed the way I've wanted for years is just 👌.

Aaaanyways I'm really interested to hear about where people are and what they're doing these days. I'm kinda overly sentimental and it'd be really cool to reminisce with folks here who remember me from way back when.

Comments

Phoebii 6 years, 4 months ago

Hi!

I'm here since 2014, and I am s game dev too, probably the most active dev of this site.

Jani_Nykanen 6 years, 4 months ago

>the most active dev of this site

Depends on how you measure activity. If we define "activity = the average amount of hours spent on game development in certain time frame", then you are the winner.

twisterghost 6 years, 4 months ago

Congratulations on coming out, glad to hear that's a load off your shoulders.

Out of curiosity, how does your church handle it? Do you still go to church? What denomination if so?

Nighthawk 6 years, 4 months ago

Thanks! They don't know, I moved to a new city beforehand. (They didn't strike me as the type of church that would have known how to handle it gracefully.) It was non-denominational but definitely leaned more towards evangelical/baptist so it would've been tough there.

I have gone to a United Methodist Church since, and they were super nice even though I was nervous as heck. I ended up moving again though so I still need to look at churches in this area with an affirming policy towards LGBT folks. (I really don't think I pass yet and even if I did I'd want to go to a place where I can be honest about it.)

I have connected with a lot of gay/bi/trans religious folks online though (I co-run a discord for LGBT Christians) and that's helped me a lot with reconciling everything and getting emotional support.

SteveKB 6 years, 3 months ago

are you cool yet?