Well…everyone seems to be posting of their problems… so I shall too? YES..because im a girl ..and I can…mwahahaha >.>

I just need somewhere to release… sorry you must all be the victims. Well… okies… me and my bf of two years have broken up. First we decided to take a break to "work on things"…..but… yeah, we're just not together. I had thought it was my fault, cause I was tempermental, clingy and was easily bothered by him and other girls… sooo. Yeah I was set on the idea that our break up was my fault.

BUT now that we ARE broken up and I really have no incentive to please him…. I've started to notice things. At first I would still hug him and give him attention and he'd always be like "No no, we're not supposed to…. we're on a break. We have to act like it" So eventually i was like..fine I'll act like it. Soo I stopped caring… stopped paying attention to him, and didnt even bother to ask him to call me…….soo what happens? Well… HE starts trying to hug me and be all sweet and attention like, but I just tell him to get off and that we're not together. Then he'll randomly tell me about some hot girl he saw and talked too or w/e (half the time its not even true) and I really don't care so I just tell him "That's kool, good luck with that." Then him, "Why don't you care? Why do you keep acting like that?" Uh…cause you wanted me too?? And then, on his own, he calls me to tell me how he is or checks up on me, when before I had to nag him to do it.

So obviously this boy doesn't know what the hell he wants. And he obviously likes the effing attention…. and the fact that I actually care when he goes with his girlfriends. Then he used to get mad cause Id be mad and wouldnt tell him why, or what was wrong, and he said it annoyed him or bothered him or w/e. But I noticed…he does the EXACT same thing. At church hed do it… and today he did it, kept asking him why he was mad and quiet and stuff and him "Nothing…. just stop asking me." Uh huh e_e Too busy trying to make him happy before I never really noticed. So NO it isn't all my fault damnit. Some yes…. but not all. So right now, I'm sort of letting him suffer. Tired of trying to make him come back… this time let HIM try to get ME back for a change. Tired of being the guy e_e

And then with my "best friend" Karen… yeah pretty much not anymore. Kinda draw the line at me texting her about three times cause I needed someone to talk to over the break up cause I felt like crap….. and still no answer from her two weeks later. Then she puts in like 0 effort in talking to me. Hurts but… oh well… guess it was only to last so long. Kinda sucks though…. she was my girl best friend… my boyfriend was my guy best friend…. pretty much lost the both of them. Soo…yeah…sucky position.

Haha, my erm…what can I call him…my..ex I guess? Ah well… I'm still going with him to prom. As friend if not girlfriend. Kinda wish he'd friggin suck it up and actually try to get me back if he actually wanted me. Which I assume he does cause he keeps calling me the pet names he called me before….*sigh* So confuzzling.

Oh well…. there's my share. Nice to get it out. No one much cares of the problems lol but that's ok.