And I'd say I've been lurking, but that would be a lie >_>

Life blog alert. You have been warned.

What a six-months-minus-one-week this has been, eh?

It's almost hard for me to believe I've been here for SO LONG.

I've posted a little over 100 blogs since I joined, added countless comments to people's blogs, befriended a handful of you, angstblogged a time or two, added one game to much praise AND criticism, etc etc etc.

And to think I was going to join back in 2009 when I was still young and an e-asshole.

I bet many things would be much different then! Just ask Qwilderwibben how that might have been like.

I really need to stop coming up with new projects, but experience has a way of doing that to me. So I'm probably going to devote a few days or so to making new, mini-projects out of nowhere and table all my larger ones just to break from the samey old routine.

Life has been quite the rollercoaster since I joined, me hitting several highs and lows in the middle of my stay here. School, friends, etc. Existentialism and religion. Good times with Your Very Best High School Friends at the bowling alley, losing to several girls who don't play bowling at all. My parents yelling at me for increasingly bullshitty reasons. Hanging out with my girlfriend of nearly 30 months. Dying away on the inside because my parents don't see her as such and don't let me hang out with her.

I'm going to be Rather Busy in the coming months. Boy Scouting is getting intense as hell (laugh at that statement now) because I only have 20 months left to climb mountains, administrate people, service the community, learn how to save people, go spelunking, survive at night in freezing weather, many many more etc. Sound like plenty of time? It really isn't.

The Internet as a whole hasn't been all the best to me recently, but 64 has sort of always felt homely from the beginning, somehow. It's a lot more personal here. It isn't swarming with people divided harshly and strictly into several cliques and it isn't entirely swamped in pretentious hipster elitists who listen exclusively to bands only they know about.

I guess I wanted to say, thanks, for that?

Thanks for being the one site where I could sorta be myself and post whatever it is in my own space, and for being really one of the only interesting places I could go to sometimes.

Ah, enough with the sap.

I've got a lot of future to be looking forward to, what with college, family, careers.

Everything seems to be riding on what happens now, though, which- and let's be honest- bugs the everloving shit out of me. I'm getting gray hair, for crying out loud :V

I haven't really gotten to express how much I appreciate people for being there, mainly because, I guess I never did.

I always paraded myself around as a perpetually happy person, but that really was a façade. If I forget I'm sad, then I'm happy, right?

So why am I trying to change when my situation now demands more school and more activities and more housework and all that?

Oh, I dunno. It's too late at night for this shit.