Oh, what to do...

Posted by Tasm on July 1, 2006, 12:23 a.m.

*WARNING - Depressing thoughts ahead*

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I can't really describe how I'm feeling right now. It's kind of a mix between deep depression and anxiety. I don't even know why I'm feeling this way…

I'm starting to rethink my career goals. I really don't see me becoming a game/computer programmer, as I always wanted to be. I doubt I'll even be able to afford college as it is.

GameMaker has become a bit of a chore for me. I don't really enjoy using it anymore as I did before. Then I hear about how everyone's learning all these other languages, like C++, Pascal, etc. and I start panicking, like I'm being left behind and I can't keep up with everyone. I've tried learning those other languages because I know I'll have to, but I was just never able to. Either I could never understand it, or just couldn't be bothered with it.

I guess I still have some major thinking to do about my life.

Well, it's 2:14AM here, maybe I'll feel better in the morning.

Comments

Fender 18 years, 4 months ago

Hopefully you will. It tends to work for me.

And if you feel like you're being left behind, then I must have been lapped several times now.

Firebird 18 years, 4 months ago

eeeh, I've been learning C++ for a while now. I just need some motivation.

Don't give up, though.

shadowstrike32 18 years, 4 months ago

if i could just figure out something that i wanted to make in c++, then i would spend all night learning every detail of it. all you need is motivation for some project you want to do in onother language, and then get to it.

KaBob799 18 years, 4 months ago

Gm is capable of proffesional games, if you get good enough at it.

RhysAndrews 18 years, 4 months ago

I get the same problem sometimes; wonder what's the use of programming in GML? In some respect it's not even a proper language. If you don't feel like working on something, don't do it, but instead think of something you do want to work on. I find it a chore to have to finish games even though I want to start on a new one so much… well, if you really can't finish the game don't be afraid to start a new project anyway.

Sleep always helps for me; and most of the time it's just being tired that makes you feel crap. I feel left behind too that I don't know PHP or C++. Forget that problem. You'll learn it like a flash when you're ready to. See, I want to be a game designer; but at the same time, I hate games today. See my previous blogs if you wanna hear more about that… Don't worry, nobodies life can possibly fail so long as they believe it.

marbs 18 years, 4 months ago

Thats why most people don't finish their games, lack of motivation. At first I wanted to have a career in game design or something, but now I'm not so sure. If I did, I'd be better to learn a "proper" language like C++, but I just don't have the motivation to because right now there isn't much point in learning a new language. One day though I'll learn C++, when I feel like it.

melee-master 18 years, 4 months ago

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GameMaker has become a bit of a chore for me

That's because you've used it so much. But hey, if you don't feel like coding, then don't do it. We're only kids, still in highschool. So basically… Maybe try something different. Sometimes this is how I feel.

As for sleep helping, I have no clue, since I go to bed at 5:30, 6:00AM every day. =D

marbs 18 years, 4 months ago

Don't let gamemaker take over your life, other wise you wont have a life. Just use it when you feel like it, and get more than 8 hours sleep a day =)

DesertFox 18 years, 4 months ago

On the bright side, you need to update your banner - you have a community level of 32 now, and over 2000 hits.

NeutralReiddHotel 18 years, 4 months ago

Hey, I used to LOVE Game Maker, but I don't like it as much as I used to be.

But I keep using it because I want to be a Game Desinger.

Just do anything to reach your goals.

Wow! I SAID THAT?