The Girl

Posted by The Avatrol on Oct. 27, 2010, 9:18 p.m.

Well, I usually keep stuff like this too myself, but I guess it can't hurt talking about it and I've grown to respect a lot of people in the community, so here goes…

I've been working at this Bagel Shop for 2 years now and the time I spend working there occupies much of my life. I used to be a very out going person, but as of late, I've spent most of my time just sitting around recording music. I live in an apartment with a buddy of mine, but he's a lot like me and we don't really go and do stuff that much.

I think I'm starting to develop a social-anxiety disorder, which is something I would never have seen happening to me. It's weird, even though I want to talk to people and hang out, I get really nervous around groups of peers, to the point where I get shaky and my hands even start to sweat. Even at work when I'm taking orders, on a bad day, I get nervous then, my heart starts to race…

Anyways, I've been single for a couple of years now. I didn't mind it so much at first, up until recently I've thought of it as a waste of my time to go out and try and find a girl I like. I usually wait until a situation presents itself or I see someone that just makes my heart hit the floor.

So we hired this new girl, she's not quite 18 yet (and I'm 22. She's one of those goth/scene type girls. She has huge gauges in both her ears and a piercing in her mouth above her front teeth. She's got really cute hair, awesome style, and she's a total princess. (acts cute to try and get what she wants). I think her musical taste is just horrible for the most part, but even though that's what I do, I could really care less about that. She is probably one of those overly emotional girls that has fun with you, and when she's done, tosses you aside, but I want her anyways. At least for now, I'm not going to put my heart into it too much, but I feel like I need a girl right now.

After assessing her, I immediately made my decision that I would treat her as if I think she's cute and adorable, but you know, "whatever, I don't have time for you" kind of deal. This is something I never would have done in the past, but to my surprise, it;s working well so far, and at this point, I can tell, (and my associates have told me), that she's into me. This is exciting for me and has given me a boost of confidence because I kind of had a feeling she was out of my league, though I have had many girlfriends in the past. So I'm going to keep trying to play it cool, but at the same time, I don't want her to get bored and lose interest in me. (oh by the way, she CONSTANTLY texts me bout random stupid shit, and I feel like I have to play along). I told her to be a beat up hooker for Halloween. XD

So I was lurking the interwebs like the creeper I am, and found her facebook, which had a link to her tumblr page.

She had a recent entry stating "Why am I still single?" which went on to explain her predicament of not getting any affection lately, and how she can't even get a kiss. Lately at work, she'll give me a hug before she leaves or before I leave, and it's starting to seem awkward like, "why are just hugging me dammit" kind of thing, so I get the feeling she is referring to our situation to some degree.

So tomorrow is my day off, but she's working. I'm going to show up, grab her by her hand, take her into the back room and kiss her madly. Thoughts?

Comments

The Avatrol 14 years ago

Wow, cool. I was under the impression that she wasn't legal, but I guess she is. O_O

Haha.

Also, about the grammar, I didn't even bother proof reading it and I can tell you that the "couldn't care less" is definitely not the only grammatical error in that journal entry.

Castypher 14 years ago

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I highly doubt anybody uses the phrase in that context lol
You haven't watched a lot of television lately, have you? It's pretty common. The point is, nobody cares which way you say it. Americans (and some other countries, though I know a lot of us here are American) revolve around slang and improper grammar. I just saw the correction in here completely unnecessary. That's all.

But to the age of consent bit:

Here it's still 18, but apparently not illegal if 16 (provided the other is less than ten years older). But geez, they have a lot of detail regarding this stuff. I guess legal things always have to. But they could probably accomplish as much saying "Don't have sex with 15-year-olds," rather than creating so many loopholes.

Quietus 14 years ago

Kilin, you don't get it. you're either the kind of person that is bothered by these things, or you're not and you think everyone that is is just being nitpicky.

Castypher 14 years ago

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you think everyone that is is just being nitpicky.
That might be the case. Certainly what it looked like from here.