… boy, it's been months since I've said that.

My brothers, I have been abandoned like the black sheep of any conformity-stricken crowd. The roots of our morals have been pervaded. I have been shunned, lost and let loose.

Whatever happened to human decency? Where are the friends I had just a mere two years ago?

Am I too sickening to be included in your immediate vision?

Have I been rendered so innately unfortunate since the time of my inception?

I am angered - angered that my parents brought me into this world. Angered that I am ignored, my mind wracked with old memories of my past. It has made me into… this beast. This oddity.

My life is a huge lie in itself, and I don't think I can continue it any longer. All my life, I pretended I was someone worth something. Anything. I always tried to stay positive. I wrapped myself in a thick blanket of self-deception and self-worth. Ambition. It was all lies to begin with.

I now realize that everyone here, man woman and child, regard me as someone to be removed from society if one day the law comes that allows it. I am mocked daily for being me. For existing.

My biggest objective is to move on from this wretched hole. I must throw to the wind the shackles of my oppression and allow myself to depart this coil of land. I must journey to a new place, a place where I can start anew…..

Australia.

CURRENTLY LISTENING TO: Act on Instinct (C&C3 version)