After much thought and not-very-happy feelings (refer to the previous blog for what I'm talking about), I've decided to come back to the GM world momentarily. I feel that what the effort and time that I gave over the years to my games would go to absolute waste if I didn't finish what I had planned. If I went out like what I'm doing now, all that I did in 6 years would turn out to be nothing.

That being said, I must think of this situation realistically. I simply cannot go on with GM because of things that are going on. I'll soon be a Senior in high school, thinking about admissions and being on the insanely-hard-and-time-consuming classes like Calculus BC and Physics C (which I'm going to have back-to-back according to my new schedule…ugh…). Looking further ahead, I'm planning to go to an engineering school which will REALLY kill my time even more and I'll get even less time for GM. I made the painful decision that I can't go on with GM and that I can't simply keep this up of teetering between not doing anything and saying that I will. I needed to decide either to go all the way into GM and have huge problems with time both school-wise and GM-wise, or to drop GM officially. I decided to drop GM officially.

My short career (2 games spanning over 6 years) makes me feel like I could have done a lot more. That's why I decided to go out with a bang. Not to "retire" quietly but to make an official farewell. I've decided to go into the summer vacation (for me it starts on May 24th) thinking about completing my last three major games.

Here's the plan: I have three months of extended summer (stupid new Texas state legislation making us start later…but we get virtually no breaks in between) and I'll complete my last trilogy of games. In June, I'll complete Project F-60. In July, I'll make a totally new game called Chain Reaction (tentative name) that has been in my mind for the past year. In August I'll complete my final game, Hoover Ball and the Trail of Treasures, the game that I've promised to so many people. More information on each of these later.

I feel that with the completion of these three games I can fully walk away from my favorite hobby thinking that it really amounted up to something. It'll be very onerous, for the 1-game-a-month will require much to do, but I fully intend to do it. I sincerely hope that I'll get some support from you guys as I complete my final three games as I post about my progress in the upcoming months.

It's been hell deciding over this and I'm going to miss GM, but I feel that it's for the best to leave it. Hopefully, I'll be able to carry on with my plan and I hope that these three games won't go unnoticed.

For all those who are about to go into high school and in the first high school years, cherish your times with indie game development. Someday you'll be forced to leave it, even if you don't want to.