Philosophy was boring today

French was boring too, but I made it like Philosophy

ICS was boring because people decided to take a class they didn't care about. Maybe if ICS was actually a challenge people wouldn't take it as a free credit and we could do something

Physics we got to work on our bridges. Mine was already done

And then they wonder why people skip

Now then, the outline for my children's story in French

Nihilism

Existence is what we perceive

Can we perceive thought?

We perceive our own thought

Therefore thoughts exist

I perceive illusions

Yet they do not exist?

Contradiction

Perhaps we can include them in a local existence

We share global existence, but local is our own

I can't perceive your thoughts and vice versa'

Therefore thought is local

Local existence is a collection of personal illusion

Thought is illusion

Artifacts can be implanted in global of local

Writing of thought

Painting of illusion

You think to process what you perceive

An illusion processes reality?

We have a local existence framework of global existence

Global existence is a pattern of emergence in locals

Perhaps all human minds have a similar flaw in their perceptions

Then we would share a local flaw, grafting it to global

Is there something more real than the global lie?

How much local control does a local systgem have on itself?

Perhaps we don't perceive our choosing what happens to us

We don't perceive our subconcious/source of thought

Where are these thoughts coming from?

Why won't they go away?

I don't want to think

Just go to sleep, it'll all be okay

You'll still be thinking though

No escape, perhaps there is?

The most important question is if life is worth living

Instinctively it is, genes and memes don't benefit often from suicide

But that makes it a calling to that extent

Can we break the bindings of genes/memes?

issues against suicide are outdated

It is a leftover of growing population survival

Sucide today allows greater chance of survival for the whole

Viewing humans as cells to humanity, suicide is like a cancer killing itself (I'm alright with this analogy because the model I'm using is like making an analogy between multiplication being repeated addition and exponents being repeated multiplication. It is a recursive analogy)

Cells shouldn't self destruct, usually

Humanity is at a state of unusualness

Should the whole disallow a part to sacrifice itself for the whole?

I need 6 more lines since the book has to be 50 sentences. I'm thinking I'll bridge the jump between illusion and rational suicide

Also, I think I'll take a break from x86 while I work out wMod