As an artist:

My anatomy has gotten pretty goshdarndagnabbitly decent. My grasp on color usage needs work, as well as my use of perspective. I also need to do more background work because everything I draw lacks one.

But I would say that I've come far since I started here.

As a game designer:

I've finally come to terms with the fact that I'll never be a part of commercial game design. I mean, I've known this for a while but I kinda wanted to SAY it to cement that into my brain. I always know that I'll be messing around as a hobbyist and an artist, but I feel as if I pursue any of it as a career, not only will I not go very far, but it will kill the fun as well.

As a student:

I want to do my work really bad. I honestly do. It's not even so much that I'm procrastinating anymore. It's like my mind and body will not allow me to do my school work. I try so hard. I answer questions in school. I do the work while I'm there, but outside of school I cannot force myself to do homework no matter what I do. I set alarms and I wake up early. I don't know what to do. I believe I may have ADD but everyone believes that about themselves. It's just an excuse. It's not about the grades - I have a B average, though grades have no meaning to me - it's just the fact that I want to be a truly decent student. I don't want to just pass through the system because I'm intelligent and clever. I want to fell like I earned it. And it's hard.

As a person:

I don't hate life as much. Like I posted on Rez's blog, once I realized that EVERYTHING was meaningless, it made life so much more bearable. I'm a Christian and my morals are important, but death is really all that matters. Especially in my religion. Death, and how you die, is what truly says something about yourself. What I do, or don't do, and what you say to me really doesn't matter. Death is the epitome of life.

I know it may sound morbid, but that realization has brought me a lot of peace and happiness. Don't sweat the small stuff! :)

Oh and the engagement is going great! A medium sized, midsummer wedding. I'm so excited.