So, there i was, ordering myself some fries at some local fast food shack when one of my friends asked me: "What do you want out of life?"

I had to stop for a while here, and think, and think, and think. Right then and there, I wanted to buy a burger, but then i thought some more, and said to myself; but in ten minutes, i will have forgotten this food, and i will not crave this taste.

Hours later, I was still trying to think, and to answer this question.

I thought that I must have been, all of these years, all of my study, working towards a clear ideal; there wasn't anything that came clear to mind. maybe i was thinking too hard. All i knew is that i wanted people to like me.

Later that night, while studying, i thought to myself.

I want to be important to humanity, to make an impact, to, later, have a wife, and to have a steady job in research. Of course, if I was to keep talking about what I want, I'd end up looking like a whiny little bitch. It was later that i thought to myself, what does everyone else want out of life?

I asked a few people, and most of them were counter-intuitive with their answers, wanting things that they were actively working against.

For some reason, most people think I'm crazy, or not quite sane. When someone hears that i like science, rather than sports, they find it to be a shock. I then think to myself; Sports contributes nothing, it takes money from a wide band of the population and condenses it into a small area, between a small selection of people.

Sports contributes to debt, and many people have had ruined lives, due to gambling.

Of course, most people want something big, and exciting. Something you can throw, something you can label, brand, copy and buy. Something you can sell, and something you can be sold; Sports. What's interesting though, is that most of the sport enthusiasts i know are obese, or out of shape. Maybe it's better to watch someone else succeed, than it is to succeed yourself. Or maybe it's easier to just pretend that you're them. Sure, that's one way you can sleep at night. To tell yourself; I am great, and adored by the nation. Only, that makes you more depressed when you wake in the morning.

In-fact, this is something I've been thinking about for a while. most people view their lives as boring compared to the rest of society, who, incidentally, also have nothing to do. because of this connection we make, between the rest of society, and a bustling freeway of things to do, we feel unsatisfied with our lives. Are people actually happy with their lives, or do they just pretend to be?

OK, that went a little off track, but there are some things to think about.

1: What do you want to do with your life? what are your ultimate goals? are you working towards, or against them at the moment?

2: Do you want to be important, do you want to be that guy in the headlines?

3:Why do you buy good food when it has no long term satisfaction?

4: How do you see society? is it better, or worse than you are?

5: What effect does the success of others, in no way linked to you, have on you, and does it make you feel better? What if they put it in movie, or or the form of a media for you to watch?

In-fact, fuck thinking, post any of them here, or maybe just 1, 2 and 4, it's always interesting to see.

Oh, and I'm going to have to make a couple of student films soon, on no budget, and I'm open to any story ideas you guys might have.