I haven't been around on either the GMG or GMC recently as I've been spending time with my family after my sister's death this past Thursday. I won't be active until roughly next week.
She died as a result of an overdose of ibprophen (Advil). Because of her existing liver disease (Hep C), it must've caused her liver to shut down, effectively shutting down the rest of her system as a result. Saying it was an overdose of ibeprophen seems like an exaggeration, especially on account of her Hep C. So in reality, she took too many (how many I'm not sure, but knowing her, I doubt it was anything unreasonable) for someone in her position should have.Elizabeth was a recovering heroine addict, living in California with her boyfriend (while we live in New York). My sister and I would always argue, usually concerning the money my father would invest in her (hoping that if he helped buy various necessities and so on, it would help her recover). I was always cynical about how she spent the money, or how much was needed.I've decided to seek a psychologist for help in recovering over my sister's death, as well as for the hope of additionally overcoming my fear of death (as articulated in a past blog post here) which only seem to dilate my worries.In the meanwhile, I hope to resume a healthy interest in programming as I have before all of this, and continue work on my current projects.I should note that I'm sorry if some feel this blog post (or rather, my blog entirely) has become overly personal, but rather that I'd rather explain what's on my mind or anything of importance to explain here on 64D, as it operates as my all-around blog to explain these things. Granted, most 64D blogs (should at least) mainly operate to explain GM related matters. Although, after seeing the amount of personal thoughts I've submitted onto my blog in the past, what I've said today doesn't seem to complicate this dilemma much more.
Hey man I know what it's like to lose someone so close like that. One of my great friends died in a house fire two years ago. I remember distinctly seeing start wars episode 2 with him and cracking up at his impression of the geonosian leader… click clock!
I can't watch that movie and not cry now. It's hard to let go of the past like that.A little over a year ago, a good friend of mine died. She was an administrator of a website I'd been going to for years. She had leukemia, and was putting up a good fight, but it finally won. It was so sad. I couldn't go on that site without crying. I basically ended not getting on the internet at all for about 3 or 4 months. Even now, every time I think of her I feel sad.
People say that with time, it gets better, but it doesn't, not really. You may not think of it as much, but when you do, it hurts just as much. You can think about it for longer, you get stronger, but it still hurts.Rest In Peace - all our lost loved ones.Wow, that's tough.