Death In The Family

Posted by RabbidMickeyMouse on Oct. 3, 2007, 12:35 a.m.

I haven't been around on either the GMG or GMC recently as I've been spending time with my family after my sister's death this past Thursday. I won't be active until roughly next week.

She died as a result of an overdose of ibprophen (Advil). Because of her existing liver disease (Hep C), it must've caused her liver to shut down, effectively shutting down the rest of her system as a result. Saying it was an overdose of ibeprophen seems like an exaggeration, especially on account of her Hep C. So in reality, she took too many (how many I'm not sure, but knowing her, I doubt it was anything unreasonable) for someone in her position should have.

Elizabeth was a recovering heroine addict, living in California with her boyfriend (while we live in New York). My sister and I would always argue, usually concerning the money my father would invest in her (hoping that if he helped buy various necessities and so on, it would help her recover). I was always cynical about how she spent the money, or how much was needed.

I've decided to seek a psychologist for help in recovering over my sister's death, as well as for the hope of additionally overcoming my fear of death (as articulated in a past blog post here) which only seem to dilate my worries.

In the meanwhile, I hope to resume a healthy interest in programming as I have before all of this, and continue work on my current projects.

I should note that I'm sorry if some feel this blog post (or rather, my blog entirely) has become overly personal, but rather that I'd rather explain what's on my mind or anything of importance to explain here on 64D, as it operates as my all-around blog to explain these things. Granted, most 64D blogs (should at least) mainly operate to explain GM related matters. Although, after seeing the amount of personal thoughts I've submitted onto my blog in the past, what I've said today doesn't seem to complicate this dilemma much more.

Comments

Jabberwock 17 years, 1 month ago

I'm really sorry. I can't imagine what I'd feel like if one of my brothers died.

marbs 17 years, 1 month ago

Sorry man. =[

Castypher 17 years, 1 month ago

That's terrible. Death is always a hard thing to overcome. When my uncle died back in 2003, I couldn't bear to do anything like chess or basketball because it reminded me too much of him. I feel better now, but, of course an uncle isn't nearly as close as a sister.

I always think about what it would be like for an immediate family member to die, and I can't take that thought without bursting into tears. We take so much for granted right now…

Grand-High Gamer 17 years, 1 month ago

Stop posting emoticons/smilies. A comical sad face next to your posts really doesn't seem sincere to me.

macxthegamer 17 years, 1 month ago

terribly sorry :(

Cesque 17 years, 1 month ago

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Stop posting emoticons/smilies. A comical sad face next to your posts really doesn't seem sincere to me.

I get what you mean, but you're obviously oversensitive and what you said is not true. Emoticons are not "comical" in any way, at least not by default, and they're the internet's equivalent of expressing emotions - think of ":(" as a non-linguistic equivalent of "sorry to hear that".

Having said this - I'm sorry to hear that :( I'd say I know how you feel, but that just won't be true, since I've never lost a close person I'd care about, or even argue with.

PY 17 years, 1 month ago

Damn, that sucks.

I'm truly sorry for your loss.

I actually prefer blogs that arn't GM centered, BTW.

ludamad 17 years, 1 month ago

I wish you luck with resuming a normal schedule, and I hope you can recover from the shock and loss.

twisterghost 17 years, 1 month ago

We're here for you

melee-master 17 years, 1 month ago

Quote:
I actually prefer blogs that arn't GM centered, BTW.

Same here. They get awfully repetitive.