(Blog 95)

I don't know.

I don't usually ever get to be genuinely mean to people, but whenever I do I get thrust into some wheel of "I feel great" versus "I feel awful" and that wheel keeps spinning and somewhere along the way I get severely nauseous and delirious, and plunge into hamster-wheel metaphors.

My girlfriend was once going over my Zodiac/astrology dinguses and mentioned something about having a sharp tongue.

That when talking to people I could really hit them with it or something.

I don't know, I mean, I wouldn't say so. I've only made a handful of people cry since primary school.

But now I feel that with that last comment I've left on the Dynatown page was probably a step too far into the "unbridled hate" side of the Sliding Scale Of The Emotion In Taizen's Commentary.

But I dunno, maybe.

Removing it would feel silly. But leaving it up for everyone to see makes me feel worse as a person.

But hey. This darker side of me is still a part of who I am, right?

I just try not to show it as often.

But I still don't feel quite right :(

Un-front-paged because obvious.