What the hell is wrong with me?

Posted by Tasm on Oct. 15, 2006, 1:25 p.m.

Something's not right with me lately.

I spent all of Friday and most of yesterday trying to look up a friend on MySpace. I felt like a stalker trying countless times to find her, all attempts in vain.

It wasn't until today that I asked myself, "What are you doing? Why are you trying to contact her when she barely knows you?"

I think it all stems from what happened Wednesday. You see, I had PE that day, and we were all choosing our next units. On days like that, we always spend the remainder of class in "open gym," that is, we can do anything we want. Well, like usual, I'm standing by myself thinking about something, when I feel someone (jokingly) punch me in the back. I turn around, and there she is, my friend. We start talking for like 45 minutes, her other friends come around and we form a sort of circle in the middle of the gym, dodging volleyballs and basketballs as we chat.

Pretty normal, eh? Well, here's the deal: I'm not a very charismatic person, as you might imagine. People don't just walk up to me and start talking. I ALWAYS have to initiate a conversation. But she just walked up to me and starting talking like she had known me for years(in reality, I'm just in her Chemistry class this year).

So why do I keep trying to look her up on MySpace, a site I absolutley LOATHE, when I don't even know if she has one(she merely mentioned MySpace, so I kinda figured…)? I must be out of my mind. This isn't me. I'm the kid you see in the back of class, skimming through a text book, trying to get his homework done before class ends. And, to top it all off, I actually WANT to go to school tomorrow. I think I'm ill…

But let's get back to that later, eh? I've been getting pretty deep into Flash now, I'm actually working on a pseudo-project for Chem, a Flash quiz. It's coming along very nicely. Gotta love Flash. Gotta love Adobe for buying out Macromedia. Gotta love Adobe for buying out nearly every software company out there.

That's it, nothing more to see here. I gotta go clear my head.

Comments

Tasm 18 years, 1 month ago

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Either that or you really are a stocker

I don't work in a grocery store, so I'm not a stocker.

twisterghost 18 years, 1 month ago

EEP! MySpace >.<

Dr_Eechmen 18 years, 1 month ago

I hate myspace… and I wouldn't say you're insane… I've done my share of 'stalking' in the past, of course, I never was too successful…

rockyran 18 years, 1 month ago

You want my honest opinion?

Seems to me that despite the fact that you have always been the "sit-in-the-back-of-the-class-and-don't-talk-to-anyone" type of person, there's some unknown trait deep inside you that is very sociable. You've recognized the fact that you're the one who has to initiate the conversations, which is something introverts don't really know or care about.

This girl you speak of is the first time you've ever experienced someone actually talk to YOU, not you to her. Seems to me that you have to be the one talking to people and making friends, people don't come to you (I'm a lot like you in that matter). This time, someone actually wants to talk to YOU, not all the way around. You liked that so much you want it to keep going, so you've started to look for her.

How do I know this? Because I've just described myself.

..or I could be dead wrong.

Extravisual 18 years, 1 month ago

I really don't see much thats wrong with that, its just a bit of harmless obsession ;)

OL 18 years, 1 month ago

Awwww.

For all your stalking needs,

http://www.internetaddressbook.com/

Tasm 18 years, 1 month ago

Rockyran, you're absolutely right. I'm not crazy, I just want to feel like I did that day…

Thanks, I owe you.

Hootiehoo 18 years, 1 month ago

MOO.

Hootiehoo 18 years, 1 month ago

Sorry, just thought you needed a random, pointless, irrelevant, and poorly though out comment.

ludamad 18 years, 1 month ago

lol