I don't know why I always ask myself what I expected when what I expected doesn't happen

Posted by s on Aug. 17, 2008, 7:59 a.m.

So it seems the lady who tells me "Me no speak English" and hangs up doesn't speak French either. I've decided to label that possibility a false one

I'd thought it only to be a few weeks that I've been trying to bridge the gap I've left for four years. But looking back at when I posted my first attempt (which happened to be worth blogging about) the date states July04

I've begun biking a lot. Hence all my later travels to Thompson have been short. But last night I took another bike ride (I've been taking too many, before the first my legs felt stiff from sitting around too long) to Gabriel Dumont. It took about 1:40 and I'm estimating that time can be halved if I leave from Beal

Therefore I have decided to delay that which has been delayed too long another 2 weeks

And why would I happen to try and meet with someone I haven't talked to for four years?

First of all, we had agreed to meet. I don't like to leave matters that can be finished unfinished. And no, time is not an excuse to nullify the contract

Second of all, I've the luxury to have such a calm life that I've the time to ponder myself into an existential crisis. For some reason I feel this will help me in that regard

There. I'm done blogging by the letter, I'm back to writing bloated things because I can't write in that concise way I use to. Maybe because now I've begun to babble of events rather than thoughts. But that's the thing, these events are causing thoughts (To me at least, I've no idea what purpose my recollections serve you)

Comments

PY 16 years, 4 months ago

They provide an interesting amd often thought provoking… whatever a word is. it's 2:30 and I don't know english anymore.

Alexitron 16 years, 4 months ago

I didn't talk to someone for around 5 years and then we started talking again until eventually we got married.

I also got to reunite with a really great friend of mine that I hasn't seen in about 6 or so years about some 5 or so month ago and it was the most awesome feeling ever.I didn't know how much I missed this woman until I saw her again!

In the other hand,I once met the most beautiful girl,that was like 10 years ago,and ,well,it was a very bad time in my life,I can almost say she was the only good thing happening to me at that time.Well,the thing is that I said something stupid to her in a bad moment and she just desappered and so did I.Up to this day the memory of that girl just causes me pain because I know I hurt someone special.

So whoever is this someone that you most meet,do it.Like i once heard on a song "is better to regret something you did than something you didn't".

s 16 years, 4 months ago

@PY=Don't know English, you say?

Thanks for the inspiring accounts, Alex. You should follow your own advice and apologize if you haven't already, though. As I'm one to mutate things, I'll simply say that a denied apology is greater than silence

Alexitron 16 years, 4 months ago

Oh man,how much I wish I could just see her again to tell her how sorry I am.I just have no way to contact her anymore.Sometimes I don't know why is this haunting me up to this day , but then I realize that is because is my fault.Is just a bad thought that gets to me from time to time.Probably she doesn't even cares or remembers anymore.

s 16 years, 4 months ago

Have you done stuff like running her name through search engines?

Alexitron 16 years, 4 months ago

I have tried yes.Ah,let us just forget about it for now.I don't want to feel guilty tonight.

PY 16 years, 4 months ago

English indeed.