An Actual Blog²³

Posted by sk8m8trix on Oct. 17, 2011, 2:42 a.m.

So, I haven't written a blog in a while, and by that I mean I haven't WRITTEN a blog in a while. None of my late blogs really had anything to do with anything, I just felt like being an asshole because believe it or not, this site actually used to be COOL. And I actually do like a lot of the members here, and a lot of people here (and people who no longer show up) are very good game makers. And to tell you the truth I'm actually happy to see you all involved in a competition (so do good and try hard or I'll be sad, and you don't wanna fucking make me sad, do you?).

So here goes, for the first blog of the rest of my life, just going to put my zune on randomize and start writing. At The Bottom of Everything - Bright Eyes

What actually made me want to write a blog is that I was looking at some of my older ones from maybe a year ago and I saw a lot of comments from old members that actually made this site what it was, almost every blog had a comment from PolystyreneMan and Obelisk. Now Poly is probably one of my favorite people on this site, he loves good music, good drugs, he's like a beautiful neon space hippie, and he makes very pretty games and nice fitting music. Like if I ever met him in real life I'd imagine he'd be a zen being like one of the guys from MGMT. Obelisk is just something else, I love that kid, we have an intense sexual relationship, he likes good music and looks like he should be on stage singing with Conor Oberst.

Enough of that old shit. Snakebite - Alice Cooper

What's been going on with me lately? Nothing, just trying not to fail out of my second year of college, been doing a lot of coding in my CS4 class, but I'm fine with that. It's all my other classes that make me want to die, I'm trying so hard not to fail those that I don't have time to concentrate on coding, I actually failed an assignment last week (along with like half the kids in my class, but that's besides the point). I wish I just had more time and motivation to make games again. I feel that my two latest projects are very promising, but I've just lost the drive to work on them.

The King Can Not Be Found - Piano Magic (check them out if you like electronic darkwave, these guys are just beautiful)

Robot Factory initially started out as me testing out a new graphic style with a cool room design engine, then I was like "fuck it, I could make a whole game in this style" and I actually used to work on it like 24/7 back in the robosquid irc channel. Now I've just lost the drive to work on it, I wish I could just find a way to wrap it up and release it right now, I've completely run out of ideas to make it fun and challenging.

Music Room is what I especially love, I finally found that high end function and room manipulation to make even the weirdest songs seem like they're properly being interpreted through musical spectrum analysis, the problem is I just really don't know what to do with it. You can move around and look in a 3d environment that makes cool colours, I need to find some way to make it appeal to the drug child in all of us.

Coquet Coquette - of Montreal

Lately I've just been expanding my vinyl collection and working on art and schoolwork, I really have no drive to do much except exist and I try to do that a beautifully as I can.

Here's my vinyl collection that I have with me at school:

Alice Cooper - Welcome To My Nightmare

Asia - Asia

the Beatles - 1962-1966

Broken Bells - Broken Bells

Beach Boys - Pet Sounds

Beach Boys - Beach Boys' Party

Beach Boys - Endless Summer

Bright Eyes - The People's Key

Carissa's Wierd - Songs About Leaving

Cold Cave - Cherish The Light Years

David Bowie - Changes One Bowie

David Bowie - Scary Monsters And Super Creeps

Dead Can Dance - Spleen And Ideal

Depeche Mode - Sounds Of The Universe

The Doors - LA Woman

Eagles - One Of These Nights

Elvis Costello And The Attractions - Armed Forces

Jefferson Airplane - Bark

Jefferson Starship - Red Octopus

Joan Jett And The Blackhearts - I Love Rock N' Roll

Joy Divison - Unknown Pleasures (180g Rhino Reissue)

King Crimson - In The Court Of The Crimson King

MGMT - Oracular Spectacular

Modest Mouse - The Moon And Antarctica

of Montreal - Aldhils Arboretum

of Montreal - Hissing Fauna Are You The Destroyer? (with Icons Abstract Thee ep)

of Montreal - Satanic Panic In The Attic

of Montreal - Skeletal Lamping

of Montreal - The Sunlandic Twins (with Bonus EP)

of Montreal - False Preist

Portugal. The Man - American Ghetto

The Rolling Stones - Sticky Fingers

Survivor - Eye Of The Tiger

Styx - Equinox

Styx - Pieces Of Eight

Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin - Broom

Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin - Pershing

Tin Machine - Tin Machine 1

Yip Deceiver - Yip Deceiver

The Who - Tommy (only sides one and four, lost two and three)

The Who - Quadrophenia

I hope to make it a lot bigger than that.

Pistol Dreams - The Tallest Man On Earth

So what's new in my future?

I'm planning on doing NaNoWrimo to get back in touch with my liberal side (I actually have a knack for writing, as long as it's on my terms). Maybe I'll attempt to write a whole book on LSD, but that would require dropping every day for a month, and I'm not sure my mind could handle that.

Other than that, I'm just planning on taking all CS courses next quarter and coding hard.

Trap Doors - Broken Bells (my new favourite band)

But yeah, that about sums up my life right now. I'm still a badass player (although this past year has been a stream of failed relationships and hyperbolic drug abuse, I'm just going to take it slow and meet a beautiful indie girl).

But hey if you don't really know me aside from "That asshole who calls everyone a faggot" I implore you to read up on me some more, then you just might realize I just AM cooler than you.

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Citywide Rodeo - The Weepies This song is just beautiful.

Comments

Polystyrene Man 13 years, 1 month ago

That paper was published 33 years ago. Is there anything more recent to show?

Not trying to be a dick about this, just curious, because everything I've read suggests LSD is harmless in the long term. It's even being considered for pain management and treatment against cluster headaches (as are mushrooms).

bendodge 13 years, 1 month ago

Lol, I know very little about drugs, medial science, or anything like that. I just think it's ridiculous for us to sit around here holding forth on medical science without doing any research. I spent about 5 minutes looking for that…but I did find it interesting.

Note that those are short-term effects.

Polystyrene Man 13 years, 1 month ago

For sure, I know I'm not going to change any minds about the harmfulness/harmlessness of acid on this site. I was honestly trying to resist responding… but I just couldn't! And I guess I was the one to provoke it to begin with, so shame on me.

Anyways.

I think psychedelics are important in the sense that they open your mind to a new way of thinking about the reality that is happening all around you. They make you more aware and more appreciative of life and living, and help prioritize attention. The wisdom gained compared to the physical damage (if any) makes them so much more valuable (obviously, my opinion) than other more popular intoxicants- booze, cigarettes.

But I think that the experience is more important than the drug, and I also know that the experience can be achieved without artificial means. This becomes more and more apparent to me every time I get to this state of mind- that it's always there, it just needs to be realized.

I've completely lost track of my original point and I sound so preachy.

Anyways, yeah, it's not worth arguing about.

frenchcon1 13 years, 1 month ago

basically drugs are really cool guys