Sure is slow on 64D.

Anyway, not jumping into some fad or anything. You may not be happy to see a guy like me joining in on something like this, especially someone who (I personally think) is rather easygoing and laid back about things. But I assure you what I have isn't nearly as bad as some other people. I've just got some things on my mind (or lack thereof) and don't get to vent much.

First of all, I've been easily irritated lately. At little things. I suppose that was a bad time to buy Dark Souls, and to start playing the DotA beta.

The good news is, I'm postponing Dark Souls. The bad news is, it's because my stupid fucking brothers broke the AV cable jack (both the cable AND the TV) in the short hours I was gone.

I also really dislike DotA 2. Despite having played League of Legends for two years, DotA's learning curve is ridiculously high, and the game feels too similar yet too different from what I'm used to. I don't like how it plays. Call me simple-minded. And if I can't even play a League of Legends normal game because of idiot players, I'm not going to look like a fool on a new game and be tormented by those too.

Regardless, I'll play it a bit more. It would really be fun if I, you know, had someone to play it with and teach me a bit.

Anyway, this whole wave of depression hit shortly after I finished that story of mine. What can I say? It was a lot of fun. It was really the most fun thing I've done in a long time, and the fact that it's over just pains me. I've tried writing another book, but it's just not the same. I have to wait until the people I've sent it to finish it before I can even go back to look at it, so I don't feel too inclined to make changes until I'm ready for them.

I actually think it was two days ago. Maybe three. I've got a buddy who I listen to and help with no complaints, whether or not I actually like his work. His game ideas? Sure I help. All the time. Even if I'm not interested, I'll make myself interested. But when I ask for a little help for myself, it's discarded. Well that sure made me feel like shit. And I think that's why I'm going through a massive decline in productivity.

It's very likely I won't finish this competition either. I've got a great base as far as functionality goes. But I lack the focus and inspiration to continue further. This was a fun idea, but in order for me to really go through with something, my heart needs to be in it and quite frankly, this competition didn't give that chance.

If I could focus, I'd be working on Terminys right now.

*sigh*

Guess I'll open up the novel and see if I can't get in the mood. Aside from that, thanks for listening. I don't vent often, so if this pissed you off, great. You'll know that. And if not, thanks for the support.

I did, however, read a very heartwarming and inspiring thing, an interview with the creator of the Mother series on the third entry. Seeing some of his thoughts behind that brilliant game made me want to steer Terminys back in that direction. The one of awkwardness, bizarreness, and comedy. Because as of right now, it's very story-based. Soon enough I'll find out what works.

Once I get a graphics designer, I'll increase the window size, too.