**Be warned, this blog is a shitfest of everything from the last two months of my absence**
Well, shit, It's been a while, hasn't it? Almost two months? I disappear like that sometimes. Let me catch you all up.Life and Obligatory 64Depression-Well you know, life's bullshit. You guys remember my blog titled "Tears" going over my recent relationship problem. We were technically in some kinda of relationship purgatory still, or as she called it 'a break', until I decided I couldn't take it anymore and just called it all off until we felt like we could work again.This happened around the end of September.I was having some pretty hardcore anxiety issues up until about a week or two ago. Combine anxiety, depression, and stress on a constant basis, and your mind does funky things to your body.I went through a period of thinking I was going to have a heart attack due to tightness in my chest, pains, palpitations. I even thought I had heart disease. A few weeks later I started getting twitching in my side, which then spread all over my body in a day. I did some research, which then made me think I had ALS or MS. I essentially became a hypochondriac around this point, and it was horrible, knowing that there's nothing wrong with you, but panicking because your mind is telling you to. I hate having anxiety issues, I just can't stop thinking about things. Things in the past, things now, things to come, bad things, it's BAD. I wanted to kill myself at a few points, tried at a few points, cried to sleep at a few points, and began to feel detached from the real world at a few points. I began thinking I could find a way to turn back time and change things, maybe I could salvage my sanity and not be alone, friendless, a loser with talent.Nope.I began in early September trying to deal with my sorrow by buying temporary happiness. I needed something… something that would pick me up from the floor, and so I bought game after game after game, blowing through cash like drinking water. Money does not buy happiness, only temporary relief from whatever it is that's haunting you. What'd I get? That's addressed in the next section.But now I feel a bit better. I had to force myself to not let my anxiety control me. I don't care if I live long, or die tomorrow, but I don't want to die lonely and in agony, letting my memories and mind haunt and control me. That' just a no-go.I realize I can't do this alone, and my true savior arrives November 6th.
Life. The Good Life-My room has a name now.I call it the 'Battle Station'.Here's a panorama.
Also, back in September, I got the urge to play some of those awesome PS3 exclusives. The problem was I didn't have a PS3!So I bought one, and the following games.Infamous 2Killzone 2Killzone 3: Helghast Edition
Resistance: Fall of ManResistance 2Resistance 3StarhawkSSXUncharted Dual Pack (Drake's Fortune and UC2 GOTY Edition)Uncharted 3I made the following modifications to my controller using oil-based paint markers and skillz.
The writing on the left-hand side says "Death To The ISA" in Helghan.I'm gonna be honest. I fucking love Killzone.I also got more Xbox games and Gears of War stuff.
Including the Halo Reach Limited EditionAnd Soul Calibur V Collector's EditionAs for PC games, I actually haven't gamed on my laptop for some time until recently.I bought Dishonored and got NFS SHIFT 2 Unleashed for free off Origin.The Art Life-I won't splurge a whole section to this, and instead just post pictures of stuffs I did and things.But I will say I was in a horrible art block ONCE AGAIN for a while, and in return- I apologize to Alert- if he happens to see this blog and go through it, because I had a commission to do, and was unable to deliver.Basically… I should probably get my emotions and mentality in shape before I take on requests and commissions.Anyways. I've been keeping to my silhouette style, because I quite enjoy it, and can crank out whatever happens to be in my head in under 2 hours, and I find that to be great.
And here I have some traditional work that are of really bad quality.Acrylic on Canvas
Oil Pastel-done on four separate pieces of paper and combined together… like Tetris, mang.-
Acrylic on Canvas"I Am I"Priced at $100Submitted to the "Unibrow II Art Show" in Denver. 
I'm hoping I'll win, and at the very least, be accepted into the show. First place prize is $200. Hell, maybe somebody will buy it. One thing's for sure, this is as close as you guys will get to seeing my face on 64D.Hopefully this wasn't too much shit splurged into one blog. I love this place, figured I'd let you guys know I'm very much alive for now, before I happened to end up not very much alive.Edit: New stuff
I love your art. :D
At this point, I'm going to have to hear something more convincing that "pretty good" if I want to consider this new one that is coming out :P What is it? AC5 or something? I've literally been ignoring it…
Yea, from what I've heard about AC1, ACII is a much better place to start. And I love the MP in Brotherhood… now only if it were reliable and not so fuckin' choosy. It's worse than GoW when it comes to that.
@Ferret: I gotta agree with KZ2 being the better game all around. I'm a big fan of arena shooters, and those FPS' that move real fast, but I brought in KZ with open arms and loved that weight to the game. As for KZ3, the store was… alright, kinda lost a bit of that real grimey KZ2 charm, and the ending was so … I don't know, stupid? Sudden? I mean really, the whole fuckin' place? Lol.I do like the movement in KZ3 though, even though it feels a bit more like CoD, I hated the KZ2 MP. KZ3 got it right and then some, not to mention the graphics are top-notch, not like KZ2s weren't.EDIT: @SVF: Thanks :DAC6 i believe, lol
but honestly, i see why people hate the AC series. The controls were overly complex, the gameplay was pretty easy, stealth just didn't exist in the older ones(which was pretty dumb, especially considering it's a game about assassins), the story could most likely just seem a bit ridiculous. But they've fixed pretty much all of those problems in AC3. It just may have let down some long time fans.Big changes in game series always tend to let down some fans.I'm saving my money for hitman absolution since I'm not big on multiplayer and the assassin's creed games just never seemed fun to me. I do want to play Halo 4 just for the campaign though. Halo remains an event game for me.
I must have that new Hitman. Never was interested in any of them before this one.
It's definitely going to be the best game in the whole series.
Yeah I loved the weight to everything, made shooting not only about reaction time but also about sensitivity. I recently played the multiplayer in KZ2, and to be honest it hasn't aged well. Like every multiplayer game that gets old, you end up with a mix of really good players and simply horrible ones. Problem with KZ2, with the way players can make spawn points anywhere on the map, it gives sooo much weight on the players in terms of how well the round will play out, and man, if those bad players keep spamming spawns in horrible locations you just have the worst time.
The ending to KZ3, seriously, wtf. You go through all this shit, and then suddenly at the very end it's "press O to end the game." And that's it! You press O and then the entire freaking planet, all of Helghan the coolest place ever, gets destroyed. Poof. Fuck I hated that so much. KZ3 fixed a lot with the multiplayer, but the weightiness was gone and it felt way too generic for me and I got bored. Also they got rid of a ton of player classes, what's up with that? And saboteurs can shoot and keep on disguises? As if they weren't cheap enough already >_>Also, heck yeah hitman! How could you not try one before Eva? D: Go try out Bloodmoney when you can. I love that game.I only play the Sharpshooter in KZ3, and sometimes the Saboteur, cause just running into the enemy base and taking out sharpshooters from behind and undetected is hilarious. What's even funnier is when you know you got a spy following you, except he tries to play it off and be cautious, but you saw that little red name blink above him, and you just stab his face in. I just wish I could hear their reacitons haha.
Anyways, I don't know, I think I tried one for the PS2 and didn't like it, nor was I into stealth games back then, but I'll give it a go someday.